Although I was introduced to meditation pretty early on in my yoga experience I would have to admit that I didn’t return to it as often as I did my Asana practice. I more returned to it when it seemed I needed to and even at that I would more often return to what I now consider to be more “centering” that meditating. Over the years, centering and meditation have become the delineations of whether or not I’m simply moving more towards what I would call a more Buddhist Non-Doing mediation or a concept of Deep Consciousness’ type of contemplation or Samyama as Patanjali might label it.adam balanger If these terms make no sense to you, one would be more like clearing your mind and enjoying the peace of less stuff going on in your head and the other would be more like getting to that same place and then going deeper and allowing contemplation to happen so that you could have a better concept or clearer relation to the concept that was in the contemplation. Wow, if you aren’t used to this talk about consciousness, it can get deep.
In 2003, After a life-saving emergency brain surgery, I had a quite unique and long recovery. Because of the nature of the incident, in part , that most of the “masses” that occupied my brain were left in to slowly diminish over time with the help of heavy drug therapies. Needless to say I was left with some pretty long lasting, altered mind conditions. Even though I had done quite a bit of meditation or should I call it more “centering”, my conditions and situation left me not only with the need, but also the avenue of many many hours a day of deep centering which simply drifted into what I would now call deep mediation. It was a time of long recovery, long inward reflection, outward disconnect and insightful practice.
In 2007, I was introduced to Paul Mueller, a great mediation teacher, who added explanation, form and technique to what was already going on. I am very thankful to Paul for my years of study under him and hope that time permits me again to one day study with him even more.
Today, with a family and more on my plate, my renunciate like days of meditation seem to be a bit more a thing of the past but the ease of the depth of my meditation practice seem to still reside steady within. I can say that I’m eternally thankful for my challenging experiences from 2003 to 2006 and hope to more and more share the gifts I received from those experiences. I consider much of what I teach on the yoga asana mat to be preparatory and introductory for meditation even if the student never realizes it or seeks it out. I also teach a non-singular technique intro to meditation course at a local college which has been a great ground for experimenting with subtle and simple exercises to help the most beginner practitioner enter into the delight of either “Centering” or “Meditation”.